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Widow’s Bay discussion club

spoilers abound!

So this was a lot.

episode 6, “Our History”

By episode 5’s end, it is obliquely suggested that, when our own hopes and fears are in charge of us, we might constantly be making pacts or covenants, however inadvertently, with something unseen—negotiating a treaty with not a benevolent god, but with a lesser, sicker, ravenous one1.

And sure enough, episode 6 expands on the danger the town mayor might’ve found himself in. Extreme spoilers follow. (If the following two paragraphs are properly invisible on your screen, you’ll have to highlight the text to read.)

On his way to being buried alive, the town’s founder, Richard Warren, offers a panicked, plot-dense confession to church parishioners. Not only the town's patriarch—a reluctant prison warden of a sort—Warren is keeping the island’s hunger at bay by selflessly feeding it with his own blood. To his addled mind, he is the necessary protector of the people. Sorry, he is “Lord Island Protector.” That’s an interesting combination of words, one that you could semantically parse a few ways.
Anyway! This episode made me ill. This is an inverted family pyramid scheme with just one guy getting devoured at the bottom, rather than the typical trickle-up pyramid we might imagine, where wealth consolidates at the top for the benefit of only a few. Either way the resources flow, it’s still parasitic, rather than symbiotic. And when just one guy is getting fed off (literally bled out!), there’s often another person one more rung down the ladder: the supportive, long-suffering spouse. Because everyone’s gotta feed off of someone in this MLM hell, right? Can’t make a meal on love.

This horrific image—of one man’s sacrifice to pay off the karmic or spiritual debt of many—touches on the popular historical debate over whether early Christianity was a cannibalistic death cult, as the Romans fearfully characterized it, what with the group’s seeming fixation on martyrdom, on Christ's sacrifice as the ultimate ‘lamb’, on the exhortation to “eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood” (the actual first Thanksgiving, perhaps). Some theologians understandably get real hopped up when you mention this. I don’t have much to say about any of it except that I have a visceral aversion to pyramid-shaped religious sects. I do like a potluck, though.

This episode is relentless—Ti West maybe not my first-draft pick to direct this bleak, Netflix Fear Street-coded episode, although I totally get it—and yet Betty Gilpin does her damndest, choosing her moments to do her whole thing. (“Ha,” I said aloud appreciatively, unable to muster a real haw-haw.) The episode is not chuckle-filled, despite being blessed with this cast, who are capable of walking a wire between pathos, grimdark, and slapstick, yet seemingly were never allowed to. It’s really the first time I’ve been this disappointed.

Perhaps this is why Apple made the unusual choice to release two episodes simultaneously. This episode left me, well, starved. Oh my god! What if I’m the island2, and nothing is ever good enough for me!

episode 7, “Seasickness”

Starving. As the next episode opened, I realized I am starved, and I wrote and deleted an embarrassing note about starving—prompted by the sight of an adult human in a t-shirt that fits. Well, I’m a simple creature. And that’s really the fundamental theme of the first 13ish minutes: desperation, starvation.

Surely everyone is starved for something. I’m constantly on the ropes trying to forgive myself for my baser instincts of stay alive! while struggling to avoid the pitfalls of fear, pain, scarcity, lack. And I mean, that’s what is being tested right now: how much stress you can take, your window of distress tolerance, your endurance. I feel very low today.

Anyway, the man with whom Mayor Tom now speaks is noticeably bloodless and a bit desiccated—but still alive though!!!! God, you guys, sometimes it’s tough to decide which character I relate most to.

The desiccated man speaks: It knows frightened men will do desperate things.

Welp, that’s everything in a nutshell, right? Not just Widow’s Bay, but everything3.

Desperation makes us behave outside of our own highest selves, and fear makes us erratic. I feel like I’ve tackled most of my fears by now—many of them I’d never had the chance to outgrow, like ghosts, or heights, or pitch-black darkness—but I’m still afraid of math, paperwork, email, confrontation, failure, and the consequences of my own actions.

rib tips

…and voice memos

“The analysis is not very deep,” Caro was lamenting, of the Widow’s Bay subreddit, “and that’s fine. But not everyone has Jenn Frank! And I have Jenn Frank. And I can have deep analysis with my friend, Jenn Frank. And so… that’s why I’m calling.” LOL.

Hopelessness, cosmic dread, is just a single scary stop on the way to the solution, is what I think I’m saying here. Lovecraft always sucked shit because he’s anti-anti-authority: because he got overwhelmed and called the whole thing pointless, saw the words “Abandon all hope” and ignored the fact that it’s just what one gate says.

Caro and I agree that we are desperate to hear a new story. We are both cautiously optimistic about the showrunner’s intentions, about Tom’s plight and his prospective arc. “We all need to deal with this together,” Caro says. Still talking about Widow’s Bay, obviously, and just that, only that.


  1. The demiurge is described in Gnostic texts as a sort of ravenous, coddled King Baby. A temperamental auteur, his creations are all derivative: each one illusive, an imperfect facsimile of true reality, the real Real. (Of course, he also claims all authorship and credit, demanding to be worshiped and adored for his brilliance, or else he feels all alone, because he is a black hole of insecurity and there is no amount of validation that can ever satisfy. But doesn’t it take two to make anything really good? “No!!!” King Baby screams, because he resents his wifemom, “I did it all by myself!!” Thank God for disembodied agender wifemom, the story goes, or else we really would be empty vessels.)

    Unable to care for himself, the god-king creates all these different architectures and systems to care for him, DoorDashing every meal. In this battery-operated simulation, King Baby is also energetically broke—having long ago gone into the red, racking up debt quarter over quarter, running on empty—so he expects regular sacrifices if you don’t want your own shit wrecked. In other words he is the wealthiest dude in the universe, but he’s also cookin’ the books and misreporting his revenue and barely paying his contractors.

    This is sick parent energy: compliance for the sheer sake of compliance; don’t ask any follow-up questions or I’ll take all your toys away; I made clay children just so they’d be obligated to serve me, drones waiting on me hand and foot until they crumble; this is all generational, a disease that is handed down; this is a punishment, it’s god’s curse and his blueprint and his will.

    I’m not going to try to label it (emotional immaturity, mommy issues, daddy issues, toxic patriarchy, capitalism, a cult, an MLM), because this poisonous soil infects absolutely everything. “So that’s what we’re all up against,” I told a friend on the phone recently: sick dad energy, sick parent energy, elaborate systems of exploitation and predation. It’s, like, a metaphor or whatever.

    Anyway, I love the show because it’s about cultivating healthy dad energy, which is the nourishing energy the people yearn for.

  2. The town’s founder Mr. Warren talks about his “burden,” which is to do the island’s “will”—not the will of a Christian god, he stipulates, but of “our god,” the horrible little regional god of Widow’s Bay.

    I’ve never had a particularly powerful will of my own—even now, always struggling to not constantly yield to a small, willful child or a larger, equally willful dog—and I often get lost thinking about how “will” is just the German word for “want.” It’s the simplest statement of your own desires. Ich will = I want. (“Do you want to eat this shit sandwich?” “No.” “Will you?” “I will.”)

    And the distance between what I ‘want’ and what I ‘will’ really stresses me out. What I’m willing to do, usually to “make it work,” is almost never what I actually want to do. My best childhood friend and I were recently talking about our teen years—how she was often caught in the midst of conflict between my mother and my high school boyfriend, who were in a power struggle over who would control the next stage of my life. What were their wills for me? I think about how I’ve always been taught to defer to God’s will, whatever ambiguous thing that might be, with my parents and church and town functioning as priests and arbiters. But what do I will for myself? I’ve never been allowed to think about what I want before, and I’m struggling with the magnificent responsibility of it all, of my own agency—which is not the same thing as ‘control’, which oh boy I have none of. I’m struggling to get my desires and my will to both align, if I could properly identify what I want first—hidden and unanswered—and if I could just be an adult about it.

    So I tend to dwell on the dissonance between what we want and what we will, and how we outsource our own very powerful will to others—as town founder Richard Warren does, for what he fears is the collective good. Like, what would the island really do if you just starved it. What would really happen. Would the island die. What if you used RoundUp.

    There’s also the idea of willing something upon someone else as a type of inheritance. What are we actively choosing to hand down? What horrors are we willing to our descendants, and what do we actually want for them, and why are these two things not, in fact, the same?

    I keep telling myself that this is my best life, I explained to my friend J on Saturday, and I am desperate to enter a season of selfishness, “but I really don’t see how any of my recent life choices figure into that.” I sighed here. “What is a best life anyway? When I think of my best life, I am probably in a cabin in the woods with my books and my cat.” Y’know, with absolutely nothing going on.

    J reminded me that certain actions are crucial for everyone’s best life, and I admitted I do believe that, and I pressed my face into my hands, contemplating what I owe others. Like, obviously I want people to inherit a better world, and it means pulling a Patricia while attempting to embody a Warren. On Monday I articulated my concerns—“I don’t want to do anything; I am called to do this”—and signed a contract right afterward, effectively formalizing an agreement to ride the ride I guess I am already riding. Later I walked in to discover the family watching Encanto. I left and crawled into bed.

  3. I think back often to my airport conversation with the Swiss potato scientist, recently retired in his mid-60s.

    “Thank you for removing the mask,” he told me, using one long-fingered hand to gesture across his own face.

    I laughed. “If anything, I’m working on masking better,” I told him. I swiveled on my barstool toward him, bumping my knees against his, and craned my neck, performatively examining the other patrons in the space behind us. “It isn’t safe,” I said to him in a low voice—not paranoid, exactly, but the regular, self-protective degree of apprehensive.

    “People are mostly good,” he told me gently. Then he laughed. “Which you might not believe if you watch the news.”

    I frowned. I didn’t say what I was thinking, but it isn’t about designations like good or bad, it’s about desperation. I wanted to tell him the truth: that he is from a high-trust society that functions correctly, that he is visiting a low-trust society, perhaps a little lower every day, fear-driven and desperate and dysfunctional, a city where you can’t set down your cell phone and just walk off.

    At the end of our conversation, which was long and winding, I slid off the high stool onto my feet. “I am going to hug you,” I told the scientist.

    “I was thinking the same thing,” he said. He rose up, standing at least a foot taller. He hugged me. He hugged me again. Then he held me by the shoulders, memorizing my face. I idly worried about my face-blindness, worrying that if I ever met him again I wouldn’t know him.

    His eyes welled up. “Thank you for—” he began. He trailed off.

    “Plain, tidy speech,” I said.

    “Yes,” he said. He stooped to kiss me on the left cheek once, and then a second time, sealing it.

    We’re all starving. Safe dad energy, or maybe someone else’s daughter, who enjoys Swiss psychology and thinks your parenting style sounds good.